delayed depression

for a moment there, i was amazed at myself for not getting into fits. i was amazed at myself for being entirely cool about a super long email that's packed with a fair amount of explosives that'll usually ignite me. i was amazed that i'm still feeling chirpy.

then i realised.. hours later, i started to dwell on it. eventually i started to visualise my imagination. then i started feeling indignation. then i started feeling crappy like it's the worst day ever and i just want to go home and sleep.

zzzzzzz......

my intention to recharge and restart my new year with more positive energy has gone back into hibernation.